That feeling when someone makes fun of something you're sensitive/insecure of.

Who knew telling someone what you feel and think will be like this. I was never the one who say what's on my mind, not easily anyway. Finally had the guts but it got received th wrong way. I don't know how. It was clear. In the end I was the worst person in the world. Don't know why I even bother, no one gets it anyway. No one listens unless it's themselves talking. Never have, never will.

The important thing is to not let it in. But it's so hard not to, specially if it's not I'm used to. It's easier that way, but my thoughts kill me every fucking time. You know what I'm most scared of? That I'm going to die a very sad person and I won't even know why, and people won't even know that I am. I'm too fucked up in the head and I don't even know why that is so.

I wonder whats wrong with me. Sometimes I just keep wanting to go deeper and deeper into the world of self destruction. Like as if I want to see myself fail completely and disappear.

-Daul Kim

And no truer words were spoken than this.

Do you ever feel like cutting ties with certain people because being around them is just tiring, but you never do coz it wouldn't feel right? For them? Well maybe a little for you too. Maybe searching for my options somewhere else isn't too much of a bad idea. Go some place and never come back. I wish I were braver. Tougher. I really don't like me and what I am right now. And every one else is not being much of a help. I hate me. I hate how my life is turning out to be. This is so not how I imagined it would be. I hate me for not doing anything about it. Why am I not doing anything about it? Why am I too afraid of taking the first step? My giant leap of faith? I'm a fucking coward and I hate me for that. You can't judge me. Everything is easier said than done. 

Tomorrow, I'll forget about this. I'll wear the same fucking smile like I always do, and it'll start all over again. The fucking cycle of getting nowhere. 

It's 9:20pm and I just finished eating a burger. I feel like throwing up. I hate myself right now.

Grief strikes at the weirdest times. On a public transpo, brushing your teeth...it's been more than 2 years, I don't even know if it's still called grief when it's been that Lon.

I've always felt like I've been robbed of my grandmother. Slept thinking she was fine, that she'll be able to make it through the night, got woken up coz she died. How screwed up is that Bro? Ang daya-daya. Why'd You made me think that she was fine when she wasn't? I shoulda have stayed with her I shouldn't have slept. Bakit po? Did I completely miss Your point? Hindi ko po talaga maintibdihan.

I miss her si much.

"There's more than one way to die. Your heart can go on ticking, but sometime that’s just for show."

Please stop. Jeeeez.

What's the quickest way out? One that is painless? I don't want to be saved, I just want out. Quick and painless.

Sometimes I just can't help but wonder if my friends are really friends. Nobody even bothers to look for me.

Maybe I should stop reading. I notice how I'd always read too much when I'm sad or feeling too much (or not feeling at all).

And then there were days like this...I am truly a roller coaster.

That feeling of loneliness even when you're surrounded by tons of people, even when you're laughing your head off with friends, and even when you're with the people you consider as your bestfriends. It sucks the most. I want to be a different version of me. Sometimes I just want to disappear completely. No one cares anyway. My life is ok but the thing is, I dunno. I hate my life. I hate me. Why can't there be an easy and painless way out? I wish I was a bubble. I'm getting tired of pretending to be happy and ok. I'm fucking pretentious. Sometimes you just get tired of everything. The fuck is wrong with me?

Do you ever feel like someone else is living the life you've always wanted?

Why do i always get emotional at night? fuck.

I'm on a trip but I'm so fucking unhappy im crying my eyes out. Sad thing is, as always, I don't know why...

Who are you and what do you want from me?

JEEZ. Stop acting like a jealous fucking girlfriend. She's your best friend for fuck's sake! I have best friends but I don't guard them the way you do! That's just not normal, not to mention annoying. I mean, really! It's not like I'm going to snatch her away from you! She's all yours. Weird relationship is weird.

Christina Perri - Distance (feat. Jason Mraz) [Acoustic]

This song. This.

All is clear now. I can't stay. By the end of the month, if things go as planned, it'll be my time to fly. With what little happiness I have, I can't compromise it with something such as a vague hope. Besides, regrets are so not me, so I know that I'm gon' be ok. I will be Ok. I will be great. Win some, lose some. Fresh start here I come.


Hmmm. But, if things don't go out as planned, I might have to stay. FML.

I didn't realize until now. I am falling into the dark abyss of depression, again. I need to snap back out. This is not good.

Dear 'Nay,
My heart is still broken. It might not heal. I miss you so much. The smallest thing reminds me of you. It still hurts, so much. Today, I was watching cartoons and I just broke down. I miss you 'nay. I miss you...

Naiiyak ako pero wag na Lang. Tangina. Nakakasama Lang kasi ng loob.

We all have that one irritating, mean-spirited, feelingera, wannabe-boss office mate.

Well, except when you aren't working. Kaasar nampucha.

I miss my old friends.

That one time I cried so bad for so fucking long and for absolutely no reason at all...








Happened again. I must be the saddest, most fucking pathetic person alive, I can't even.

Often times people get on my nerves. Stop putting words into my mouth. Stop telling me what I feel. Stop telling me what I like and what I don't. Believe me, I've got that covered. I'm not you nor anyone else, so fucking stop. You don't get it so stop. I don't need your fucking snotty opinions.

This is just about one of the sweetest video I've ever seen.

Live Lip-Dub Proposal

Really makes me wonder if someone will ever make the effort to do something like this for me. #foreveralone

I want to scream. I want to fucking cry.

It seems like I'm back to nothingness. Everything's the same. A fucking cycle. I dunno what to feel. What should I feel? This feels worse than being depressed. I'm neither happy nor sad. I simply feel...nothing. Seems like life is screwing me over again.